Shadow Dancing

Yesterday, my sweet daughters and I went to the Discovery Center Museum. It was awesome! At one point, my oldest said to me, "Mom, come here! You're gonna love this!" I turned to see what she was talking about, and came to the instant conclusion to the opposite. It was the Shadow Room. Have you seen these before? Where you press your body up against a wall, a flash goes off, and it leaves a silhouette of your body on the wall? Yeah. I was less than excited. I'm not a big fan of seeing how big I am, right there in front of me. I have to walk around in this body all day, every day. Do I really need to see that kind of proof? Really? Well, you parents out there know that sometimes (okay, almost always) you have to sacrifice your pride to keep your kids happy. My daughter really wanted me to do this, so, bracing myself, we posed against the wall and waited for the flash to go. When it was done, I couldn't help it, I looked, like you do with a train wreck. Which, I fully expected it to be.

Guess what?

I didn't want to cry. Or scream. Or tear down the stupid shadow wall with my bare hands.

Which I fully expected to want to do.

I stood there. Looked at it. Looked some more. And actually thought, "Huh. That's not so bad."

And then you know what? I posed again. And again! It was fun! My smaller silhouette, thanks to Liv Sxinney, has given me that. Wow, what a gift!

This week, I'm down two more pounds. And, SIX more inches!! YIPEE!

This is really, really...fun. I really, really like getting smaller. (HeeHee!) I love putting on clothes that were Someday Clothes, and having them now be my NORMAL clothes! I love putting on clothes that used to be normal clothes and having them be way too big! If this is what a month can do for me, bring it on, baby!!!! I'm so excited for what's to come!

Wa-HOOOO!!!

Alright, friends, I do have an update for you this week.

Fifteen. And. A. Half. Inches! Gone!! POOF!! I seriously mean that, too. POOF!! I haven't exercised, except for unpacking boxes and doing yard work. I HAVE NOT eaten well (oops! darn that whole, "what?!? it's six thirty?!? quick, feed the kids and self whatever you can find!"), and still my Liv Sxinney has helped me SHRINK! I am so excited, because it's only going to get better from here. This week, I'm determined to get back on track with my eating and exercising. I've already seen an improvement in my muscle definition (yes, I do have muscles underneath all my 'mallow) so I'm really eager to see what concentrated effort will bring.

I'm still sleeping like a dream. A very deep and pleasant dream. I've also noticed my stretch marks are whiter, thinner, and not as deep. Actually, I've noticed this about all my scar tissue, which I thought was interesting. Maybe that's just the effect of getting smaller. I love that I have energy all day through. It's so amazing to feel like a functional person! Yea!!!!

My moods are stabilized to an incredible degree. I'm able to think clearly through problems, get over disappointments quickly, and move from one task to the next with efficiency. I know this may the norm for most people, but this is a plane I've been praying to level on for a long, long time. I haven't gotten in-depth about my health issues for the past decade on this blog; suffice it to say my theme song was Matchbox 20's "Unwell," and that is probably an understatement. Yes, I've progressively improved as I've worked to master my mind and body. I've found products and herbs and vitamins that have helped. I've discovered ways to eat and exercise that have helped me get closer to feeling like "me." Until now, however, I always felt like I was straining through a fog, my real capacity just out of reach. Now, I feel like each day I can work, do, LIVE all day. So, in short, I'm grateful. Yes, grateful for Liv Sxinney. Believe me, I know it sounds weird. But, I feel like I've gotten my life back. Can't wait for what's to come!

Now, go get some and get your life for yourself!